Sunday, October 26, 2008
Truths

It annoys me, when I still get upset over things that concern you even after million times I told myself Im gonna pick myself up/move on etc whatever. It just gets worse each time. I've been wanting to find a good time to talk to you. You seemed to be so busy. (+/- 200 words, very personal thoughts)

So annoying.
The fact that Im troubling myself with thoughts I could have not come up with.

If I can vanish, I would. You know?

But maybe you wanna just hit me on my head with a brick/lamp/stone/rod whatsoever or bang me down with a car, so that I would lose my memory. Guess it will be a lot easier.

Then maybe everything could start anew. Great, isnt it?


Okay, A', stop daydreaming.


Whatever it is, I just wanna let you know that, even though v unwillingly, I'll still wish you sincerely.

I know it is very contradicting. But it is the fact. You may think it is weird/funny. But aiya I dont care. Im just telling you whats right in my mind now.

I dont know if you'll read this though.


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Work was great today, laughters everywhere, almost. I did OT today. Aha.

Anyways. Home is getting better now I think. I tried to communicate. It wasnt that hard. But I guess my mum is willing to do so thats why. So, my point is. If the other party is unwilling/dont even bother to communicate, then just forget it. Because most probably it wont work out. You can keep trying though.

Ah, great. I just rmb that I have yet to do my report. But it gotta be done w excel, which I suck at operating. And apparently I gotta hand in by Tuesday. Hmm. Im so lazy to do it. But I'll see.

You know, sometimes I wish I can be ignorant, cuz sometimes it just affects me damn a lot when I know the truth behind. But sometimes, I wish I know everything because I dont want to be a stupid idiot, played around by people. So now I wish there's a menu there goes "Be ignorant" and "Learn the truth" for everything. Duh, it wouldnt happen.

Okay.
Im so tired now. Good night.